Gannon by Jenny Wood

Author:Jenny Wood [Wood, Jenny]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Romance, Gay / Lesbian / LGBT
Amazon: B07XM1W8F8
Goodreads: 48153649
Published: 2019-09-13T22:00:00+00:00

Gannon

Being woken up from a dead sleep has become somewhat normal for me over the last couple of nights. Nightmares involving my mother lying in a ditch somewhere, or in some flophouse with who knows who, doing who knows what, has me waking up in a cold sweat every couple of hours. I’d asked Cruz to keep an eye out for her, but I knew that sixty bucks could keep her plenty busy for several days, and if she was laid up somewhere scoring pills or worse, she wouldn’t be found until she was ready.

Having an addicted loved one isn’t something you can truly grasp unless you have one. I wish that I was strong enough to cut her loose and forget about her, but, she’s my mom. I can’t.

I bitch to Shade about his brother, but I know how impossible it is to hate someone, even when they’ve given you every reason in the world to.

The lying, the stealing, the manipulating, the blaming, the anger, the hatred, it’s all just a part of the disease. I wish that I could explain to my mom how seeing her doped up and out of her fucking head kills me a little bit more every time. I wish that she cared enough about one of us to stop doing this, if not for herself, then maybe for me. Unfortunately, recovery doesn’t work that way. She has to hit rock bottom, they say, but I know my mom’s hit that place so many times, it doesn’t fucking phase her anymore. It might as well be home.

So, here I am, once again startled awake for the third time tonight. The clock says it’s a little after two-thirty and the darkness in the room feels charged. It wasn’t a nightmare that woke me this time, though I don’t really know what it was the startled me out of what feels like the first deep sleep I’ve gotten since last Thursday. I lay in the quiet room and listen for any sounds, but all seems quiet outside the box fan I keep in the corner for it’s sound.

I check my phone and make sure I don’t have any alerts from the doorbell cam that Jody had taken me to get yesterday. He’d recommended it after I’d told him about worrying I’d miss my mom coming back while I was at work or something. I didn’t want to miss her. Jody said that he swears by his, and it makes his husband, Cam, feel safer when he’s home alone in the evenings. It apparently has a sensor on it that sets the cam to record if anyone steps up on the porch. It gave me peace of mind that if mom came back while I was at work, I could get here in time to talk to her. I didn’t have any hope that she’d go back to rehab, but, maybe I could keep her here until I could make alternate arrangements.

Cam had been telling me about

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